down the rabbit hole...

Thank you universe, thank you.

So the past week and half has been quite eventful. Last weds. heather came to visit for the week to celebrate her 21rst birthday. Smokie came and picked me up with gutter and tink, we went back to gutters to chill for awhile. They are wonderful company, so chill and giving. I appreciate them so much for the short while ive known them. Oh man… smokie made steaks for everybody and it was A-mazing! so fucking yummy. After chillin there for awhile we headed back to his place in alexandria to chill till heather came and got me on her way into maryland, that way she would have me for half the ride. not that i minded at all, i got to see his place… its was straight, he keeps it clean and i can tell that he respects his property. I ended up not being able to take it anymore, his touch is soo good.. i caved and had the most awesome 2 minutes of sex ive ever had. sounds totally lame but it absolutely wasnt. he told me it had been 2 years since he had had sex… if he would have lasted any longer than that i would have been concerned. We got a quick snuggle session in then heather called and we went to meet her at a comfort inn near the highway. I hopped in the car and I was beaming..she could tell instantly. Heather picked me up and we headed to mcdonalds, grubbed out, then went to sleep at like 4 am on Thursday. Thursday night we went to the blackhole. Heather and Adam ended up hitting it off and he swayed her to go on saturday night which was Bring the Noise. Saturday of course was AWESOME. Me lindsay, adam, and heather went to donuts and mianchs before the show to make kandi and chill. I enjoyed the fuck out of that then we went to the show. at the show i walked up to some dude and was like what time is Nysus coming on? he said 1230, then i decided to randomly ask if he knew where nysus was so i could personally thank him for making such kick ass beats that make me want to boogie down :) he said ya, turns out hes a sick ass drum and bass dj called blaze one. He told me he would come find me if he found nysus. i was talking to jess and heather when he came up and was like want to come meet nysus, i turned around and peaced with him to the V.I.P. room to chill. I get in the room and lindsays chillin in there. Meanwhile all my friends are freaking out cause they cant find me for like 30 minutes and assumed the worst had happened. Jess went up to smokie and told him she couldnt find me anywhere so he went out to the parking lot to look for me, jess just so happened to walk by the room i was in when someone was opening the door and screamed my name.. i came out and (this is when i came to the realization that smokie really cares for me) everyone was like OMG WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN. smokie greeted me with a hug and a omg never do that again you gave me a heart attack. me being in the state i was in didnt realize the magnatude of the situation till the next day when jess was like… no we were all really concerned. I adore my friends all of them, they care, i couldnt have picked a better group of people to be MY peoples. Sunday was a recoup day, Monday i chilled with heather, adam, and lindsays at heathers dads, we got drunk and danced for hours…another sick ass night. Tuesday we did the same thing. Weds. was heathers birthday but she was heading home, i copped a ride with her to smokies and got there around two. i had every intention of coming home, but ended up throughly enjoying myself to the point where i wasnt ready to leave his side at all. Gutter ,tink, and jordan came over. Smokie and gutter had to run somewhere real quick so i chilled with jordan and tink till he came back. he returned with a mini keg and we all chilled for a bit then they peaced.. but before they did i told them i wouldnt see them till next week because i didnt have the loot to make the show.. gutter straight up gave me a 20 and was like home boy really likes you if he wants you there i want you there (soo generous). smokie passed out and after they dipped i went and woke him up we had awesome sex till the sun came up, then snuggled till we passed out.. he held me the entire night, it was so calming to have his arms wrapped around me, i melt into him. Thursday again me adam and lindsay went back to the black hole and did it all over again, i slept at lindsays came home chilled then jess came over, ive been up for hours since she left.. tomorrow were going to Sacred Geometry (thanks to gutter).. i have got to get some rest, so GREATNIGHT.